My Knees, They Are A'Shaking

Welcome back from the long weekend everyone!  I had a fantastic time on my Alberta-adventure...we encountered a flight delay and ended up meeting some really great people in the airport while waiting.  Have you ever spent the night drinking away a flight delay at the airport?  My credit card hurts!  ha ha

Anyway, I had such a great, care-free time that today, back to reality, I feel scared.  I didn't think of MS for a whole 24 hours.  I didn't feel like the "sick person" and I just spent the night being the old me.  The one without this ticking time bomb in her head.

Do you guys ever feel like this?  Am I normal or is this something I need to get some help with?

I don't like surprises (bad ones anyway) and I've always been a planner.  This is why MS is such a difficult disease for me because, in my experience to date, I wake up in a relapse.  It doesn't come on with any warning and I get no lead time.

This fantastic weekend made me realize just how much I fear the future and my next relapse.  I so desperately want to enjoy every moment and I don't want to be disabled with fear when I'm not disabled in body too.

Do you MSers out there have any advice?  How do you cope with the unknown, the cold fear and trepidation?  Advice please :)